i dreamt
that you fell
off the earth watched
you fall graffic cartoonish
fake atmosphere
closing around your shape
your heft enveloped
a fat cloud folding
in gone! wrapped
like a present into a gone
gone place way out
there not here
and I thanked god

or was it that i let you go?
could finally see the crevice
of time five years ago
when your fleshy compacting
carbon first fell out
of my life
could finally say
goodbye like the falling
was a gift